Let Me Go: Alzheimer's Lament

You are so peaceful
when you sleep,
untroubled by worries of me
I have to speak to you now,
and this is the only way
that I can


It's been so long love,
I've forgotten how to form the words,
things are so different Here
I can't wait to show you;
There's no more pain, love


Autumn leaf,
brown crust of carbon,
that's how you see me right now,
don't deny it love,
I can see it,
as you dream
my hands are thin,
my eyes are dull,
this harsh sun has baked my skin hard

I wheeze when I breath,
my arms shake,
sometimes I talk to the shadows
My hair is white,
my teeth are gone,
I walk with no aim,
You fret over me so much love,
don't think I don't know
even if I can't really tell you,
I see
how you still love me
though my brain forgot your name
I remember I asked you,
long ago
would you still love me,
when I was bent,
when age had stripped
the foundation from the temple
I can't really tell you,
because I mumble when I speak,
but most of me is up Here now
and I can see
everyday how you love,
what's left of me down there
We were right,

death is just the beginning love,
I'm so sorry I went ahead
but honey listen now
just let go,
let my heart be still
don't try to wake me,
don't thrash about the bed,
just let me go now
let my bones rest,
I'm waiting for you here,
and I miss you so

See I'm here,
just beyond the veil
and without my shell
you won't stay long,
in that thick reality,
and I'll be waiting